I Am Nobody.....but I am very good at it.
It has taken nearly a lifetime to “get it” but I finally figured it out.
Despite my frequent attempts to project myself into the spotlight, even a tiny one, (witness my website and my writing) it is now clear to me that it is not God's intention that I BE “in the spotlight”.
In fact, I think now that my purpose in life might have always been to be a background player. Supporting, rather than “starring”.
Of course, I have no way of knowing what the Lord plans for me in my remaining time here, but I AM sure He has something in mind.
Why else would He give me a toolbox overflowing with tools if there was no purpose?
Why else would He ensure that I survived a nearly-always-fatal dissecting aortic aneurism?
Why else would He have protected, and provided for, my family & I our entire lives?
Why else would He allow me to live as long as I have, despite all the stupid, dangerous things I have done, if not to gain wisdom. (don't confuse wisdom with intelligence)
Why else would He inspire me to write the “Tiny Voice” poem? I am no poet and, since I couldn't even repeat it to you without reading it, I consider it proof that the words were not mine but His.
There are many other similar questions I have in this regard. Am I believing something that isn't there? Possibly. Do I think I am important enough to the Lord that He would pay even the slightest attention to me? As a believer in Jesus and His sacrifice for all of us, I absolutely believe He would. AND DOES.
Although I could have missed it, I have found no specific instructions in my “personal owner's manual” (the Holy Bible) which points me in any particular direction.
So, here I am. Waiting. Probably not as patiently as I should be, but waiting…..and hopeful. You may never see my name on a billboard or a headline but…..look way down in the fine print and see if I'm not there someday.
